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Originally Posted by wny-er
Ugh, sorry to hear about your therapist problems. Do you live in a small town? Non-ED professionals just don't seem to get it, as it seems you have found out. After the fiasco at the VA I tried someone else who insisted I count calories... really? I told her that doing that is triggering but that I knew what normal portions were. She still kept going on about it not knowing that what she was asking me to do was something that could potentially pull me back into the anorexic side of things, grrr.
Anyway, had a bad day yesterday but as far as suggestions, I know that if I just stick to eating in my dining room and NOT in front of the TV or computer I will be fine. That seems to be what it comes down to. I am just going to have to stick to that no matter what... on my own.
Being a nurse has to make it that much harder because you know the ramifications of your actions. I can't even offer any suggestions. What stopped 90% of my ED behavior was doing 4 years of chemo: interferon/ribavirin combo tx for HCV (not cancer for folks who don't know what that is)... Talk about putting things into perspective! I think I only purged twice in those 4 years.
I am going to update my profile for IM contact. Something I should have done before starting this thread. I have a Mac therefore use Jabber for IMs and didn't realize I could add yahoo to that. Yea! I thought it was primarily google.  |
Hmm I dont know if I have Im on mine either..maybe i can figure it out..prob not lol
Yeah I take a lot of medications I have lupus and kidney issues and other problems from the ED. I guess part of my problem is i am not afraid to die so I sometimes think we are all going to die so what is the big deal. I know that must sound horrible, but before working on the unit I am on now I was a cancer nurse and that got me through it. Actually I love it and would still be doing it if it wasnt for my illnesses. Unfortunately with myself I minamize everything, but if somebody else was pulling half the **** I was I would be allo ver them. I guess I need to learn how to love myself. It seems like I care more about others than I do myself..
So are you counting calories or doing your own thing? My dietician that I have is great..how she has put up with me this long I never know but. I tried doing exchanges, but I get so focused that they meet the exact calorie amount that I end up having to eat a lot of things..apples, cereal. I dont combine things(dont fit in) so I am trying calories for now. Actually it is a mixture of both, but still only getting not even 1/2 of it in. I am not hungry and I wont eat high calorie food. Guess that is going to have to change. Something has to..I should be hearing from one other therapist tomorrow. hopefully she knows what she is doing. Also I get to go back to work tomorrow..only 4 hours but I am working. It has been 2 months.No pay check isnt the greatest and I have been living on 1/2 pay checks for the last year or so..but I manage. I have 4 dogs and 8 cats and they are expensive! pend more on food for them than me!
Well I hope tomorrow is better for you. My email is my name at yahoo if you feel like emailing me...sometimes I cant always get back to my post from before. But I will try to see how you are doing..what part of hte armed forces were you in? always thought aboutit, but like my ,other always told me they would never take me. * knee surgeries on one leg 2 on the other and ect...have a good day
And no I dont live in a small town..you would think there would be more resources but..no money in it..hate to say that but it is true!