I tried to be very careful when it came to the whole email thing. I knew that if I ever let on that I was upset about a response, that I would run the risk of her stopping them altogether.

Sometimes I will read them to my husband and get his perspective on what she writes. He sees things totally different than I do. It helps me to talk with him about what she says. That way I can see that I am probably being way too emotional and sensitive.

There could come a time when she stops email, but I think that will only happen if I let things get out of hand. If I demand a response, or tell her I didn't like what she said or how she responded.

I am not sure that I handle them that well. I just don't want her to stop them, so I try to refrain from making too big of a deal about her responses. Yes, we do talk about them in session, but I don't write her back and say, "I hated your response!"

This thread has me triggered as well. I think it is a good trigger (if that makes any sense). It has me thinking about how often I email and what I say. It makes me wonder if what I write to her every week is really that necessary?

She says that it is. She totally sees email as part of my therapy. She tells me over and over to "Keep them coming." She is the one who encourages me not to stop. She thinks it helps me process between sessions and this is all a part of my therapy.

If she ever cut them off, I would be devastated! I would rather it be me that stops, not her. If she does it, I would feel all the rejection, abandonment, and betrayal feelings again. I hate to feel those!

This is making me want to email her and ask her if she is sure that I am not driving her nuts with email. I am going to try not to do that because she has told me 1,000 times that they are not bothering her. If I aggravate her to death, she may tell me to "Leave her alone on her time!"