As some of you may know, i had a VERY very hard past 5 days. Pretty much debilitating depression and endless si ideation thoughts.

Thankfully my mood is lifting again, but i do have my tdoc appt tue and i do want to tell him about my constant si ideation thoughts, BUT i feel like im getting attached to him after questioning if hes the rigjt 1 for a couple weeks and im scared hes going to refer me to a colleague or somewhere cause this is too much for him.

Im kinda contemplating on telling him cuz if he lets me go, i dont wanna see anyone else.....that'd be it for me. I imagine he's heard it b4 since his speciality is depression and eating disord/consult for lap band and he is a psychologist phd but idk.

Im scared hes gonna be like this is too much you gotta go..

I also wanna ask him for 2x wk visits through this rough patchbut i feel like im being to needy and this is too much for him.