I have been struggling with bipolar since i was in middle school. I remember taking a buncha pills and sleeping. I just woke up to not hearing the toilet flush! Then for a few yrs i was ok. Nobody knew what i did.

17/18/19 was baaad. I was very impulsive, then would fall into a deep depression. Cycle like rhat over n over. I had 3 suicide attempts. One of them i was found by a friend and brought in by ambulance. All i remember is being chained down and throwing up charcoal. My dad put me on counseling, the hospital held me on a 5150 and the pdoc diagnosed me with bipolar. Gave me depakote n antideppressants.

1 month later from discharged from hospital i ran away with a bad news boy. Did crazy things. Then fell into anogher deep depression. This time i attempted si and it was a very very serious one. Landed me in icu for 1 month and recovery in reg hosp 2 month and a 14hr surgery. After that i wS just put on ad' s again.

Was fine for lotsa years slight hypomanoa ans slight depression but my primarycare would only rx anti-d. Tried paxil, prozac, zoloft, lexapro, wellbutrin. Nothing worked so just gave up

Seemed ro be ok for most part till this disease is rearing its ugly head again starting this past jan. Already am on my 2nd pdoc and 1st tdoc and in process of getting my meds right- but im on lithium, lamictal, emsam, klonopin, adderall as needed. Im hoping once and for all i can get this under control!