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Ygrec23 · Oct 03, 2011, 03:37 AM

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Originally Posted by sunrise

The next day in school, I watched this very strange movie about quantum mechanics, the nature of the universe, neurobiology, and the unity of all things. It included interviews with scientists, philosophers, and spiritual leaders. What they were saying seemed to be beyond where I was in my development. I wasn't completely on board with their ideas because of the weird factor, but maybe this was the sort of thing one thought about and did once one was beyond the junk in one's life. Like if you are healed, you are now at a zero point or sea level, and now you can start moving into the positive--up the mountain. All this time I have been working on being healed, thinking that if I ever managed that, I would be done with therapy, done with personal growth, done with figuring things out. I would now be "OK" and that would be it. But this movie, despite its strangeness, made me think that there might be something beyond healing. And maybe that is a direction T and I might take now in therapy. I think for the first time, I saw that there is something beyond the junk.

Hey, sunrise!

One never stops growing (unless one wants to), one never stops thinking, one never stops "figuring things out." Life can be continual growth, right up to the end, if one wants it. And you don't need a T for all of that, though there's nothing wrong in continuing to see him. It's possible that as you get used to being "beyond the junk" you'll be more and more attracted by the idea of doing it by yourself, without training wheels. And you can do that just by stretching it out, as was your impulse, first to three weeks, then longer and longer. The world is a very fascinating place when one has finished using most of one's internal CPU on head problems. I'm sure that with your intelligence and capabilities you'll find many, many valuable things to do and to find out about since you're no longer hampered by your mind. Great news! Good luck!