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Originally Posted by granite1
i have just never been able to even open my mouth to ask for what i need. i will just deal with whatever things are.
i cant seem to be smart enough to just open my mouth and say anything or ask for anything.
i don't think i could ever risk letting my T know any of it.yes i am scared of her reaction.
it is letting her know that i even have any feelings about not seeing her or that i even care one way or another. god i feel if she knew that i cared even a little she would be completely repulsed by it or just think it is so absurd that she would just laugh and that would crush me.i would rather say nothing.
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I hope that you will one day be able to tackle this granite because things like this are what we go to therapy to change. If you could bring yourself to address this with your T and learn how to speak up for what you want it would improve your life so much!
You probably had to hide your feelings from the mother because she was repulsed by them or would laugh? Your T is not the mother. Working through this would break that transference and set you free from this.
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Originally Posted by granite1
i dont think my t is the kind of t that wants to be dealing with filling needs i think she is more into me filling myown needs but that just may be the way i see her at this point.
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If you ask her for what you want then you are filling your needs.
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Originally Posted by granite1
believe me i would always rather go without than to open up and ask for something.i have been this way all my life and am good at just dealing with what may be given.i was tought that well.just accept what you have been given and be greatfull for that or next time nothing  i couldnt handle this responce from her at all .not that she would have this responce but
i think i would see any answer she had as doing or saying this so no way wont ever ask for anything. |
Then if you see it this way then you have to go back to her and tell her that you saw it this way then you two keeping working on it until you work through it.