sunrise, your post is eloquent. I'm not sure that's the word I mean, but I can't think of another one. It moved me. You've captured the essence of what therapy is all about, and what emotions come up when the "end" is anticipated.

I think you've said in the past that you wouldn't quit therapy, that you would see your T periodically so it wouldn't really end. You and he have such a close relationship that it seems like a good way to go. He's always going to be there for you and check-in visits are fine with him, I assume. I imagine you'll discuss termination with him before you actually do it. There should be an "end" to regular sessions and that is bittersweet even if you can come back periodically.

I am happy that you worked through the issue that was bothering you for so long. I am proud of you for doing that hard work!

It is fascinating that the movie you saw helped you to realize that there is something "beyond the junk". I'm sure you and your T will be able to figure out where you need to go next.