Hello everyone,

So it's week 3 in the new city and I'm still adjusting (expected) but I've started getting shaky with the constant stream of things I knew I'd have to deal with but now I fear I might not be able to...I have lots of reading to do for uni even though we haven't started yet but I'm still in that phase where nothing is automatic - just performing every-day tasks drains me to the point of feeling ill. How am I supposed to do an MA degree like that?! And as fear creeps in I feel even weaker and less equipped for this...And I have no idea how this new university works, I'm too scared to try get mentoring support, or having to explain anything to anyone, be it a professional or not, I realised how much I was relying on my old uni and the good reputation I had as someone who would never fake illness to get extra help for instance - because that's one of the things I fear people will think if I ask for support as I have no idea what's on my medical record...Is this the response of an adult who has the brain to master a 20,000 words project? I don't even want to make friends, it sounds even more tiring than the academic work, I just want to keep building a child's sanctuary which involves minimal interaction with the outside world...One week for the world is a couple of days in my sanctuary.

Sorry for the childishness of this....Thanks for reading