tree, I'm sorry you're so overwhelmed right now, and I remember how hard last October was for you. It's progress that you're not feeling as bad about the month.

Like someone else suggested, my first thought is getting a baby-sitter. I know kids aren't available in the daytime, but is there a friend or retired person you know who could watch your kids for an hour? When my daughter was a baby, I brought her to a friend's house when I had my sessions.

I know you will work it out somehow!