My appointment is at 8:30, and I don't know if I can get someone to watch my kids that early My kids have activities in the afternoon.

And H doesn't do baseball. It's like a couples therapy type issue (and no we're not in couples therapy). It's one of the difficulties in my marriage...I do all the kids activities. Right now he has to take a kid to one 30 minute activity a week and it is the hugest issue every week (and it's only until the end of October). If he has to do baseball, my son would have to quit baseball, and he's really amazingly good - hopefully he will be able to get a scholarship. Baseball is the most important thing to him.

Plus. There is my stupid issue with asking for help. I am really really really uncomfortable asking for help. Which is my issue, and I need to just ****ing get over it.

Haven't heard back from T yet. I just want to crawl into a hole but I have to work the concession stand at baseball tonight. I'm trying to think "this will be good for me!" but I'm having a hard time convincing myself.

Really, I feel awful. Haven't heard back from T yet.