No, I would NOT think my T wanted to give up on me if she said she's sorry she couldn't help me today. I wish your T would use other means when you don't talk, like mine does. She would say "what about drawing a picture of what you feel?" or "what does it look like"? or something like that. But, I think your T honestly was sorry she couldn't help you. If you can't talk to her, she feels like she can't help.

She said "maybe NEXT time". Does that sound like she's giving up? No! Please don't give up on yourself. You and I are both trying to change deeply ingrained behavior patterns. It's hard!!! You've talked before so you will again. Maybe next time is more hopeful, not hopeless, IMO.