We are going to tell you to seek professional help because that is how we got diagnosed (except for the people who diagnose themselves, which doesn't help because then they can't be medicationally treated). I found on in January. I figured it out a week before when I was very manic. I think the way we can help you is for you to tell us WHY you can't get professional help. Then we can give suggestions or tips.

If you DO have Bipolar, I would look up the Kindling Theory. The Kindling Theory is a big reason why I continue treatment.