If it is mania, I cannot calm myself down.
If it is hypomania or mixed episode, I can tell myself "shut up, you are making a fool of yourself" and I follow my own direction. I wonder if you were in a mixed episode if you were hypomanic/manic but also suicidal. You should look up mixed episode symptoms and try to determine if that is a possibility.

And... last but not least, I don't know if you mean hypomanic or if there is such a thing as hypermanic and that I just don't know about it. So sorry if I am talking about something different and taking you off base.