thanks hankster.. also very interesting what you said about the guy in college. Her parents told her that im not good for her. I forgot to mention that she has mental issues as well. checked herself into a mental hospital for 2 weeks.. 2 weeks before i met her. Also various physical health issues. But I still loved her and thought she was very beautiful, even if she is a tomboy 90% of the time(seriously). her parents have done much damage to her physically and mentally in the past, yet she still lives to please them. I never talked down on her after those text messages were sent. I just accepted it because i know its true. I like to stay home. It makes me happy. I like to shop at home.. its efficient. i still have the messages saved on my phone. it doesnt hurt me that she brings it up.. its just the way she does. looking down on me. never expected that from her. really thought she was the one, been looking for someone like her all my life, to find out she, and her parents cannot accept the way i am and how hard it is for me to change. ugh..

thank you again for reading.. and your kind words. My dad found someone.. so will I...