Yeah, there is something almost deflating about coming back to reality from the tides of deep introspection that can sometimes go along with depression. It's very alluring. I think it's good that your rational mind can see that there are dangers inherent in those depths though. Realizing the downsides can help one stay balanced. Can help to explore in a safer and more responsible fashion.

There are definitely things I try to stay away from at times, because I know I need to stay more grounded. Music is a good example. I love it, but sometimes it can drag me to places I can't afford to go at that point in time. And sometimes I get so lost that it does become painful, and harder to come back from. It's not that I don't still go to those places, but I try to remain very aware of what's happening to me while I'm doing it, and what I can do to help myself come back. When I get to the point that thoughts of death are infiltrating my thoughts and becoming harder to get away from, I know I've gone too far again.

I think it must be difficult for you because you can't just avoid things that bring you to those places. You are deeply involved in your career, schooling, and the state of the world. It'll be an interesting challenge trying to balance that involvement against the dark paths it can sometimes lead you down.