One of the ways I used to try and get a handle on this disease was to move away from the city into a small town. But I now understand I was isolating myself which is common with BP and Schizoaffective disorder. Can't run from this illness - even in the most peaceful of settings I am still a wreck and if anything a bit worse because I know no one here. Thankfully, PC is safe forum. I did finally make an appointment with a T and hope I can make some baby steps out in the world again.