A lot of what you said really resonated with me. Of course no one wants to go around feeling desperate - so much better to feel nothing. It seems in my case that the more difficult it is for me to bring up certain things with T, the more important they are. The easy stuff is usually .... well, not too important.

So yes, this is progress!!! It sounds like this is a big issue with you, and you took the most difficult and important step by bringing it up. Since your T wants to talk about it more next session, that shows he knows it's important. Hang in there - you're not alone in feeling this way. Good luck, and let us know how it goes.