flooded, I'm going to start a new thread about my session today. No one is forcing anyone to read my threads or respond. But it hurts me to read that you think I don't want to change my pattern. I DO!!!! I have finally realized that I feel bad because of my attachment to my Ts. We talked about goals today. I told her I am going to wait 24 hrs. before I email and try not to do it at all. I'm not going to google her or her family or look her up on FB. We're going to work on the child/infant parts who want to do that and why. My threads have helped me see the bigger picture. The gains from my "pattern" aren't worth it. I'm too miserable. But it's hard for an addict to give up drugs or whatever. I wish you'd have some compassion for me but if you don't it's okay too.