This is my first post after finding PC yesterday & i really didnt know where to start but after reading your post i knew this was agreat place to share. Im 41 & my life has been a sham & im truely exhausted by it. Im sure i have ADHD but yet to know what step to take next but im sure i'll eventually work it out. I have felt like you describe for as long as i can remember but my symptoms always got labelled as something else, in my late teens it was OCD, in my 20s clinical depression & PTSD, in my 30s BPD & effects from drug abuse/dependency ova 20yrs. I have always claimed "cause & effect" so the labels all seemed viable. As i no longer feel the (clinical)depression & the others are traits i battle with on a daily basis i have come to the conclusion i have found my answer to the question that led me to this site in the first place, which was..."why am i my own worst enemy?" im sure ADHD is the reason. I cant concentrate long enough anymore to make sense of what im trying to say but i know i've eventually landed in the right place & maybe now i can rest my frazzled brain if only for a moment. Take comfort knowing you have found this site & many others that feel the same & possibly answers to your questions without another 20yrs of baggage & misdiagnoses attached to you. Thanks for sharing...