thank you all for the nice helpful comments.. one thing i have to add is i feel like i already messed up with her parents.. once people make a judgement about me, i just go with it. i dont try to make it better. i dont try to prove them wrong. i am this way with her parents now, making it harder for me mentally, to even talk to them. Unless its a bold conversation about what they think about me and why i act this way around them. would that prove i love her?.. silly question.. ofcourse it would.. because i started a conversation with them..

this really sucks for me because she was the only person i was so open with. the only person i was very talkative with, i even surprised myself. it made me really happy. it just came so natural with her. its so hard to find someone like that. but at the same time, i didnt know she would turn the way i live on me. that really hurt. i dont think i'll ever open to someone like this again..