I know I was always at a good weight & kept it there by playing racquettball everyday at lunch with the men I worked with. After I lost my career & depression set in.....so did the anorexia from the stress I was feeling & probably the lack of control I felt over the rest of my life. At the same time migraines set in & after several years of being in & out of the hospital with the anorexia & having central line IV nutrition more times than I can remember, I started to gain weight because I couldn't do anything with the horrible migraines along with the horrible side effects that the anti-depressants caused.....so I gained & gained even though I wasn't eating that much. Once my migraines were brought under control with pain medication because nothing else worked, I was able to go back to riding my horse & working on my dressage training....& it was great, the weight was coming of a little each day & week & it was very healthy until a trauma hit & the stress made me so sick I couldn't eat again & the anorexia hit again landing me in the medical hospital again. It took me over a year of gradual eating again to get to a healthy weight & I have been very careful & have put my control issues into controlling my healthy weight.

It feels so much better to bring the weight off with healthy eating & exercise.....placeholder has some wonderful thoughts for you to follow.

It's a struggle many of us have or are going through, so you are in good company here & will find PC very supportive in this area.

I think when I was really struggling, if I had found the wonderful psychologist & DBT group I have now it would have made getting through those difficult times easier to deal with & care for myself.....but at the time I really DIDN'T WANT TO.

If you are really at the place where you want the help.....& the change in your life style.....having a good T & working on it yourself is really the best place to be