Thanks so much for the feedback. I am doing ok today, but feeling a bit vulnerable to T. Ugh. But I know I NEED to do this because the emotional pain that I go through is just too strong and I HATE it and need to figure out how to work through it. It also really, really clicked when I related my emotional process to cutting. It is SO true. Instead of physically cutting as I did as a teen and a couple years ago, I have been emotionally cutting myself to the point of numbness.

I don't know what happened recently that allowed me to be so open with T...I've been seeing him for nearly 3 years, and I don't think I've allowed that part of me to surface, ever. I'm sure it's a good thing.

Thanks again for all your support.