sky, sometimes discussing something in therapy can be painful. what i've experienced is once i get thru that with my T i come out stronger on the other side. it's awfully scary sometimes tho.
my T once told me, you know, you, meaning me, direct your therapy. it's not up to me. well i almost fell out of the chair. i'd been putzing around in sessions talking anout fluff when there were important issues i needed to talk about with him. i'm glad he grounded me. i was not using my time in a constructive way.
i understand what u're saying and definitely can relate but i'm sharing my experience with you in hopes it may help. hope i'm not missing the boat altogether.