I can understand you wanting to distance yourself from T, to avoid the overwhelming painful emotions that come up. It's something I'm struggling with right now, how I find a way to squash those feelings by "emotionally cutting" to avoid feeling those overwhelming emotions. I go through a pretty painful pattern to get to a place of numbness - which I SOOO prefer over the pain of desperation.

I know it works....but I doubt that it's good for me. Hope you figure out a healthier way to handle this....although I totally, totally understand. (((( HUGS ))))