((((( granite ))))))

One of the things that my T mentioned to me in my last session was that I don't yet have the ability to be kind to myself, to be gentle and sooth myself. Instead, I'm going to be really down on myself. I agreed with him and then added that I then criticize that. It's a really difficult pattern, but something that I need to address in therapy as I can't continue to feel so badly. .

My T also told me that I try to find things to do that make me feel good about myself - but that it's just a temporary high - which ends up feeling disappointing in the long run, because it doesn't really give me true happiness. That has to come from within. Well, how on earth do we do that when we are so hard on ourselves and so used to beating ourselves up?

I hope we can find our path towards feeling better about ourselves. We both deserve to feel happiness inside. ((( HUGS )))