sky i am worried about you also.has this ever worked in the past with your T.i know the pain of not talking things out with your T and holding it in .i think that all you will accomplish is making yourself miserable this month and next because you are holding it all in this month and denying yourself and comfort and help your T may be giving you.and yes next month you will be screwed.it just doesn't work this way.i hope you decide to share how you are feeling with your T.