Skycastle, I can identify with what you wrote. With my current t, I had seen him earlier and he was kind of mean I think one time toward the end of when I saw him. He was also very helpful sometimes. So it was really hard to decide whether to go back. I also wasn't sure I needed to go to t at all. I don't think I needed to; I'm not having any major life crises or anything, I just hope it will help with depression.

I don't think there's anything wrong with going to a t just because you want to, or because you're not sure if you want to, for the issues you talked about. Also there's nothing wrong with going to your current t just because you're not sure, but you keep wondering. At least it will help to resolve the wondering. It sounds like she cares, since she called you.

I went to 2 other t's for a while and then decided to go back to current t. I had to so I could stop wondering. Unfortunately, I'm not finding him so helpful now, although he tries. I'm planning to continue to go until I feel pretty sure I won't have a question bothering me in the back of my mind about whether it might help. I can afford my copays, and it's not taking anything from anyone except my time.