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Originally Posted by childofyen
Nononono... I don't think that maturity is about not being hurt. I think in this case maturity is setting aside the desire for power plays and emotional control and instead practicing honesty about your feelings. Maturity might be telling her how hurt you are about her forgetting and being open about how scared you are about her month off.
I'm worried about you too, Sky. I've seen you play out this sort of scene with your T before and it seems like every time you try to stuff your emotions you cause yourself more pain.
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I just don't think I can take one more "I'm sorry. I'm human." from her. I want to give her time to remember. I want to see her make the effort. And if/when she remember, THEN I'll tell her how shocked I was that she had forgotten.
Today's session might be very interesting. Now that she believes I have nothing to bring to session and she said she was being finally "allowed" to take the lead, today will show what that looks like. I'm eager to find out what she comes up with.
Thanks for caring, COY. That means a lot to me. And all of you who are putting my feet to the fire. Yeah, courage is not my strong suit.