I just wanted to say that this has been an issue for me, too. To have "hard" evidence that my memories are accurate, at least to the very center of what they are (who knows if the peripheral details are completely accurate or not), was very difficult for me to handle. As if I had always held out hope that the trauma I remembered (some of it "always" memory and some of it recovered in various ways) was not true. I had hoped for false memories, instead I got the opposite. I was crushed when I had to close off the possibility.

But there was a flipside, too. It gave me courage to face the work I had to do, and it made me realize in a very direct way that the worst was truly over, that I'd survived the events themselves and so I should surely be able to survive the healing from them.

I am glad that you are finding your healing, WePow.

Anne