I've been thinking about getting a part time job for a while now. My pdoc is against it. I am on disability and have been for five years, before that I was in collage for 2 years, so I actually haven't worked in 7 years. I could use the extra cash because disability rates are fairly low. Thing is I feel so under confident that anyone would hire me, my resume is bleak at best, I am very introverted, and I am just plain lacking confidence.

I am also very worried about getting a job and then not being able to keep it. My Pdocs idea is that I am so Unstable all the time and raising three kids that I don't need a job, also I will be starting treatment for anorexia soon and I guess he thinks this is too much. My opinion tho is that I am stuck at home all day, and have become socially inept , a total recluse, I feel like I am not contributing and wasting my life away. If I did get a job it was have to be extremely low stress, very part time, probably some meaningless job. Would I then feel like I was contributing? I don't know. Can I handle a job? I don't know

Anyone been in this situation? How do you find meaning or purpose, that feeling like you are a contributing member of society, that you are important and needed? I have really been struggling with this for a long time now. When I was told to go on disability it was like someone just pulled the rug out from under my future and dreams.