My boyfriend found out my cutting, I feel so horrible, he knew a little about it but I had gotten a book just to help me understand stuff and he found it when I left. When I met back up with him he was crying, he had the sweetest note for me saying he'd be glad to help, but he kept on looking at me all day like he was scared of me. I can't handle it all he'd talk about was death and stuff. Now I don't know I'm just confused I don't know what to think all these emotions are just building up, I can feel that desire to cut is coming I don't want to i feel so selfish. I don't know, I guess I just need to try and calm down. Now I'm really depressed. I think I'm gonna try hiding in the shadows tonight and hope I will be forgotten about