(((((Morningdove)))))
As an asexual, I cannot relate to your concern, but I just wanted to post that I am thinking of you. I'm sorry that your husband is not being supportive right now - have you tried having a serious talk with him about what you are feeling right now?

Also, are you currently taking medications to balance your mood, do you have a psychiatrist, or a therapist? These are a few questions that come to mind.

Sending you hugs and positive vibes!