That is fantastic news!!! You must feel so relieved. Phew! What is your new job?

Googley, I feel you are being very negative and judgmental about expressing your emotions to T (being distraught) last session. That is what T is there for, to share the ups and downs, to hear about the challenges in our lives and how we are feeling. I sometimes feel bad for going to therapy and not being "OK enough". I don't even know quite what that means, but it seems wrong! I told T about that once--I think I apologized to him for feeling down that day--and he thought it was funny. He said that most people think it is OK to come to therapy when they are down and that they see the therapist as a person who would help with that. So of course it is OK to show your feelings in therapy. But somehow that wasn't apparent to me or how I felt. I wanted T to not see me that way. What you wrote reminds me of that. THat you were very upset because you lost a job you had carefully arranged, that you need to pay your rent and for food and tuition and for therapy, and so you were super upset and shared that with your T. That sounds good to me!! I feel you have this imaginary Googley you are trying to be in therapy--a logical thinker with no feelings, who is "wise", and won't get upset. You don't have to be that way in therapy, do you, Googley? If you can't tell your feelings and disappointments and problems to your T, then who can you tell?

I asked my T once for help in containing my emotions. I was very sad and kept finding myself in public crying. It was embarrassing. I asked for his help with that. One thing he offered to me was that I could come to his office and cry with him and not feel embarrassed. So I could let off some of the pressure of being sad and trying to cover it up. So I see your being upset in therapy, and even overwhelmed, as very similar to that. You didn't go around "outside" a sobbing mess but instead came to therapy and expressed all you were feeling and probably let off some of the pressure of having to be "functional" at school and at your internship. So, good for you, Googley. It sounds like a super use of therapy and you do not need to be embarrassed about that or feel you failed because you weren't "logical" or "wise" enough when you were with your T.