I'm tapped out with volunteering. 50 years of being in one org or another. They are too up and coming, young 20 and 30 somethings with lots of energy and no wheelchair to have to accommodate (or service dog.)

The people in my life are my PT, T, and PCA, and on a less often MD, and DMD.

I've had a recent talk in the street with a neighbor who is going to try and fix my riding mower.

And then there's you here at PC.

I haven't even been to the movies, and I used to go every week... but eating popcorn and soda was part of the experience, and I eliminated the soda and switched to tea...but alas it's still making me sick. Plus I have to not be tired from being up all night instead of sleeping, and be able to sit (even though I still get up 3-4 times a movie )...

I used to eat out every day... and haven't done that in 2 years now.

So those were two other "groups" of people I would see. Not much fun or such, just hello etc.

I've tried to find a church. I won't go into that fiasco after fiasco. The church my mom was a member, well they "forgot" to tell me about their new member's class...twice. I get the hint. The wife of the preacher really is rude to me, and snarky. I don't need that either.

I recently "joined" at christianmingle though didn't pay yet. Good thing. No one wants someone who needs a wheelchair... even at my age. I figured once I was old then they would be too, and slow. lol nope. Those who had made contact blocked after the pictures went up...and it wasn't me that scared them off.

I"m tired of trying. If God has something, He has to orchestrate everything, including lack of pain and ability to do, good sleep, etc. He hasn't bothered in 25 years. I'm not holding my breath any more, instead I pray to not wake up.