I feel as though I loved him before I knew him.

He seemed very familiar when I met him and I was instantly attracted to him.

I thought he was attracted to me too but couldn't be sure because I was in so much pain in so many ways and we were both married to others.

My heart pounded every time he was near me. I hope he noticed (pretty sure he did but I kinda wonder sometimes if it was just me being crazy). This mental illness I have does quite a # on me.
We did seem to have a connection but I was hurting so badly that after a while I just became numb.
I would see him on a regular basis as we were collages.
At first I saw him around water cooler about every 3 days or so and then it became only about once a week; you see he was a very busy man. He was a Senior Executive and I was just a secretary.
After that, it became less and less frequent but when we did see each other we were quite flirty and I always thought.....someday he will be mine!
The power of positive thinking doesn't always work- so don't read the book.
Oh my god I'm rambling. I'm really sorry.

I came to the conclusion it was unrequited love and just tried to forget him.

Now, 11 years later, I still get week in the knees when I am daydreaming.