I got a new job and between her schedule and my new schedule I will go 3 weeks between session. I am really stressed with the new job and today I made a big mistake, oversight sort of thing and I am really missing T. After I made the mistake I tried to imagine T walking me through it, But I ended up in a panic attack anyways. I took a half of ativan and made it through the rest of the day.

Worst part is when I scheduled with T she said she was concerned about going 3 weeks out, But I spoke right up and said It's ok! Partly because I don't want to get to close(to T) and partly because we were at the main computer near the waiting room(full of people). UGH it was not ok and I should have said so.

!4 days and counting until T

Maggy Jo