I thought I was getting better... guess not! I've been at home trying to chill since I was sooo exhausted after being manic and my Tdoc said to rest, so that's what I've been doing. I've only been interacting with my sis on the phone and my son/husband at home, other than this site of course. And in the past 2 days have felt fairly normal in my mood.

However, my mother called yesterday and left a message so I thought this might be a good chance to practice what my Tdoc said to do with her on the phone. My mother monopolizes the entire phone conversation always and barely lets me speak, so my Tdoc said "Interrupt her and try to change the subject". So, I thought I'll give it a go today....hahaha....boy was I kiddin' myself and my Tdoc is nuts thinking that that would work, she doesn't know my mother!

So, it failed miserably. When I would interject whether I was commenting on what she was saying or trying to change the subject it didn't go well ..she just plowed over what I said or would say "I'm not finished!!!". I might add she has Bipolar and won't take meds or acknowledge her BP or mine for that matter. She had been hospitalized many times in her younger yrs and flat out says they're wrong. So, my BP is just a little to close to home for her I guess since it's hereditary, very hard for her to deny her illness now that she knows I have it. But she's selfish, selfish, selfish....I am so irritable after talking to her. I didn't need to be irritated, so I'm not going to call her for....I don't know how long!

And while I'm on a role a might as well ****** about my friend that hasn't called me one time since I came home from the hospital 3 weeks ago. What the hell is wrong with people? Well, again, she too has a history of being selfish, she's another one that monopolizes the conversation, maybe it's good she doesn't call she'd prob irritate me also... Honestly when I'm well I need to re-evaluate some of these people that just waste my time and energy, they are takers....not givers. Call me crazy (haha) but isn't a relationship suppose to be a two way street.... Damn idiots!!!!!!