I'd like to ask Rainbow again how satisfying it is to be emailing T. Does the satisfaction come from her replies or do you gain satisfaction from being able to share your feelings in the moment?

And do her replies always satisfy? I would hate to put out a heartfelt email to T and then get a standard response. Actually, the therapy seems to be the feelings generated by being in the same room. If you took what my T said to me today and transcribed them into written words, they would have little influence or power for me. But that she is there looking at me and me looking at her and the give and take between us in real time is what makes, for me, the therapeutic process work.

I'm just realizing that this is another reason why emailing would not work for me.