(((((((googley)))))))

THAT is awesome news!!! I am so so so happy that you can keep seeing T.

I really, really get the whole "what's normal?" when it comes to thoughts and feelings. Sometimes T will say "it totally makes sense that you would be upset about X" and it really helps...because I never know if it DOES make sense. It's like I don't know what I'm *allowed* to feel, even though logically, I know feelings just are what they are, and whatever I feel is okay, because it's what I FEEL.

So...I would say to YOU that it makes SO much sense that you would be distraught at the thought of losing T. I know I would be. It's an important relationship that has taken a long time to built. It's a huge source of support. It's a place you can go where you know you are always safe. To have all of that suddenly taken away, against your will, would be painful and scary. I feel pretty sure that most of us here would react just like you did.

Be gentle with you, sweet googley