Hope4joy: that was so nice of you to write. Thank you. I need to connect with people because I'm already getting that urge to do so with my T. I posted a long "letter" to her in the "Things You Can't Say to Your T" thread and that helped a little. I want to write her a happy email but that will trigger me too, so I'm not. It hurts not to connect with her after a session, but I'm experiencing the feelings and surviving.