Oh, I certainly understand that. I know there are times when I feel upset or angry that I am one of many clients - leaving me feeling insignificant, not cared for, etc. - even though T has shown me clearly that he does care.

In the past, when I felt that way, I would ask T for reassurance....but most recently, I shared with him my process for dealing with such painful feelings....to try to get to the bottom of why I go the route that I do (which is, feel upset/envious/desperate for his caring....then bash him/myself to the point of me feeling numb and indifferent). I am hopeful that by working through this, that I will somehow deal with those feelings in a healthier way next time. We'll see.

Hope you can find a way to address this with your T.