I was married for 27 years to a Rageaholic, in a couple of weeks, it would have been 28 years, if I had not seperated from him last year and processed divorce papers...he would have eventually killed me, he had threatend to on occasion, along with himself, he was admitted to Psych hospital and diagnosed with a rage Disorder, but refused to stay on medication, he was in the Military, when they found out about the abusive behavior after 22 years by accident, they caught him in the act finally, they mandated him to enter counseling, but instead he turned in his Retirement papers and he got out, on the night I made him leave, he had hit me as I was calling 911, he was so bad..he would destroy things during his rages, punch holes in walls, destroy furniture, throw food all over the kitchen if he did not like what I was cooking, at time pots of boiling water barely missed me, he hit me, humilated me, took everything of value we had..left me sleeping on the floor..but I was to scared to fight for anything..I just wanted him to go away..and leave me with all I had left, which was my heart still beating..but with the anniversary looming..instead of feeling relief that I can try and work on my broken life, including the reasons I stayed in an abusive relationship, my own dysfunctional coping mechanisms..I feel sudden overwhelming loss..and I don't understand why...it hurts, and I am upset at having painful reactions to something that should of happened a long, long, long, time ago..thank you for letting me express my confusion and hurt..