>>>>> He messaged me telling me that I needed to take care of myself or I was going to push him away forever<<<<<<<

Maybe a "time out" from your boyfriend isn't such a bad idea if you're unstable and he's having a hard time with it? Otherwise, you may say/do something you can't take back and it really will be the end, don't know? You definitely need to start your meds again to have any chance of living a normal life....
Just my 2 cents....take what you like and leave the rest.