Hello, I am 18 years old, and I feel like I am always looking for a high, No matter what it is. First time I got high (weed) was with my grandma (yea not good role model), after that I kept doing it and loved it, Then I had to stop because I joined the Marines. I smoked (Like a loser) before I went toBoot Camp, I admitted to that and then they kicked me out. I have been clean for about 7 weeks going on 8 weeks from weed, but Since then I have constantly been trying to get a high off anything- Markers, Nutmeg, medicine. I know its dangerous and I hate it. Im scared to talk to my parents about this problem because They already are disapointed of me because I was kicked out of the Marines, I dont know if I can handle anymore Disapointment. I do have another chance to earn there trust back and I can also join the Army. Heres the question, Im going up to my cousins cabin this weekend and he has a lot of weed.. If I smoke I will have to wait to join the Army and I have no time, but I dont know if I will be able to control it, Because im so addicted, like at the very thought of it I get excited.. Okay now heres the question, Without seeing professional help or help from my parents, How can I help control this. Thank You!