JD: I hope you get rested. I'm beginning to think retreats from our familiar environments and landscapes of people is a truly healthy thing.

Open Eyes, Thank you so much for your reply. I don't know too many people on PC, but it's cliquey and also surreal to try to reach out to people we've never met; but that's the therapy of it! I don't know what the court battle was you went through which you referred to, but I hope it's resolved. I'm trying to make sense of the unresolved episodes throughout my life, attacks from people mostly, escpecially in work situations. Now I can take photos, paint, draw, sew, relax at home. Something you wrote hit home: it's not really unselfishness, but self protection and preservation to avoid the victimization to users and predators. I was burned in love about a year ago now by a Cicilian sociopath disguised as a romantic laborer; I thought I had seen every ugly psychological disorder on the planet but this, as you said, came out of the blue in the night. Deception, deception, the art of evil to beguile the unloved. I have put on the armour of God. P.S. what does it mean here when a site or series of postings are locked? There is so much talk of sex and drugs, but strange censorship of "religion."

I hope you have a great day, both of you. I really appreciate your personal reply, Open Eyes; it meant alot for me to read it today, as I'm battling a medical problem and feel very alone in it.