I feel for you too, maggyjo. It's not easy. As skysblue says though, you will survive. Do you have any encouraging emails she sent you in the past that you could re-read? I use to do that in long gaps and it used to help. Failing that, write a pretend letter or email to yourself imagining it's from your T. Put in all the supportive things you know she'd say as though she is writing them to you now.
Take care.