Thanks for all your responses and sorry it's taken me sooo long to reply!

Tigergirl - he offered me a lift once when my husband couldn't collect me and I was at the reception calling a taxi after our session. I said it was ok, but he said it made sense as he was going in the same direction anyway. So the following week he offered me a lift too. But I wasn't really comfortable about it so always made sure I had a lift organised after that.

I didn't really talk about the panic attack all that much with him, we were doing EMDR and and I think some strong feelings arose from that. I also noticed that from around that time I began to feel afraid of him, but to be fair that's probably more due to the nature of the therapy and the fact that I was showing a very vulnerable side of myself to him. He put me on medication after that.

He doesn't want to see me now for three months anyway! He said he is more of an intervention guy (he's a pdoc) so I was seeing him every week for some months when I was in a sort of crisis. He thinks I need longer term therapy with a T and has suggested someone to me. It felt quite abrupt, he only discussed this with me in our penultimate session so I'm still trying to come to terms with that right now. It's all very confusing!

Anyway, thanks again for all your responses.