Phoenix,I had no idea you were feeling this pain,I only just now read .I am sooo sorry you are feeling afraid,triggered,angry,and alone.And I really wish you didn't have to walk through this painful s***.You are having flashbacks,anxiety,and a righteous anger.Do you have any close friends or family that you could sit and visit with?Someone to give you the support that you need?Is there a hotline in your area?Can you google to see?You need to try and get enough rest,use distractions in between times that you can discuss it with someone supportive,avoid caffeine,don't self medicate,force yourself out of the cycle by choosing to do something....anything which may busy you and take your mind out of where you're at.Are there any support groups where you are?You need someone who would just listen,or to journal your feelings/thoughts.I is such a burden on your heart.Please look at this site: http://ptsd.about.com/sitesearch.htm...sd&SUName=ptsd

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I hope this helps a little hon,Please go easy on you at this time.