He has dealt with cutting before, he quit right away no problem. For me, I have tried and I have gotten better but I am not as open as he is I want to yell and scream and put blame where it's really deserved but I don't know why I just can't. I feel selfish and weak in not being able to put this behind me. I know I shouldn't feel like that. I have already tried talking a little with him but it doesn't get through. Geez, now I just want that last cut, I'm so selfish how can I be thinking that. It's all I can think about though I can't sleep, too much going through my mind. I think I'll just go back into my little hiding place for the night and try and find some happy music, maybe I will wake up and this all can be one bad dream, one can only wish.