My T has mentioned she thinks I could be bipolar 2 so I went to a pdoc and told him why I was there, he immediately dismissed it and switched my meds around.

I felt like they were helping then I switched from the not sleeping and being very anxious to not being able to get myself out of bed and when I do I end up taking 3-5hr naps. After telling pdoc about my need to sleep 14+ hrs a day he mentioned BP2.

Anyway, I was taking 200mg zoloft, 60mg buspar and he added 600mg lithium. I was having a hard time with the lithium because I'm really scared of any meds causing weight gain since I have a history of EDs and tend to gain very easily on meds. So far no problems there, just had nausea and not always being able to keep the meds down.

I've been thinking about stopping for awhile. Sometimes I'll forget my meds so to make it "even" I'll skip my night time meds. Then I feel like well I was able to get through one day why not two? I'll crash and realize I need them and go back on. I know how bad this is, but I hate taking these pills. I hate the stigma and I don't want these labels. I want to feel and BE normal.

Anyone able to control their bipolar with diet, exercise and/or therapy? I exercise and am eating (mostly) clean. I'm seeing a T once a week and have been for over a year. I will see my pdoc at the end of the month, and I'm really nervous I'll be lectured for stopping my meds. I don't have an official diagnosis of bipolar, but have struggled with depression since my teens and have been on and off meds for 10yrs. I want to be done with it.